Holy Cow!
That about sums it up.
I have been awake since 3am and I've got the under-eye bags to prove it! What an amazing day this is going to be. Scary as all get out for Maya, I'm sure....but she'll get used to me!
The impact of this day hit me very hard at 3am. My brain was flooded with the thoughts that I've been pushing aside since I've arrived here in China. What will today be like? Will Maya scream, cry, push me away? Will she come willing to me at first and THEN freak out later? Or will the day go quite smoothly? Will I be a good enough momma for her? Will we bond? What must she be thinking as they board a bus (probably for the first time) with the nannies and travel to places she's never seen? I then thought about her sleeping. Is she a peaceful sleeper? Does she have night-terrors? Will she smile for me? When? What about grieving? How hard will she grieve..and will I be able to comfort her?
Whew...now that all of that is out of my head, I might be able to sleep. Too bad! It's time to put the luggage out in the hall...pack up the laptop...head to breakfast...and then on the airport!
No matter what today brings (and it is going to bring to me my wonderful baby girl!) - I have peace in my heart that all will be good. That God led me down this path to be Maya's momma and I will do my very best for her.
Ok...now go get some kleenex.....dry up your eyes....and go about your day! Check back here later.....hopefully you'll see our first pics!
Love to all!
Michelle
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Hi Michelle,
I don't know how Maya will respond to Gotcha Day... but I do know that you will be a good enough mama for her because your heart is filled with love... and love prevails. I know you will have the patience it takes to help her thru grieving because you have already taken her feelings into consideration. I will be praying for a smooth transition for Maya!
Michelle - today is the day you become a mother :) :) :) :)
Love, Robin
Oh Michelle I am so excited for you.
Soon your world is going to be turned upside down in SUCH a good way. I...cant...WAIT!
Anxiously awaiting...
There are no words.
All the love --
Aunt Stephanie
Hi Michelle,
These are the most surreal moments you will experience! You are going to be a great Mom. God will give you the knowledge and strength you need to prepare for the biggest transition in Maya's life.
Love ya,
Joan and Alexis
Michelle,
I am going crazy with anticipation! We are so excited to hear what your first moments with Maya have been like. What a blessed little girl to have such an excited mommy. She will have fun listening to the stories about this very trip one day. No matter how she reacts (or sleeps) in the beginning know that your bond and trust will only grow deeper as the moments pass. We are praying for you all. Your dad has to be so proud. Not many fathers get to experience the "gottcha" moment of their daughters and grandchildren. What a lucky man!
Hang in there! We want LOTS of pictures!
Joli
You were meant for this. Just remember all of the good thoughts that are being sent your way. And Dad is with you for additional strength. He's good at that. Love to you both. Soon to be three. Love MOM
You are going to be awesome! When you get back, I think you might want to change careers. I think journalism is in your future! I can't wait to read the next chapter!
Kisses,
Peggy
Dear Michelle,
Angels watch over you and sweet little Maya, and your dad, too.
It is going to be wonderful and I can picture her now wrapped up in her quilt when you get home.
Did I mention that I must have a picture of her with the quilt.
Love to you all,
Mary and Jim, too.
Shel everything in your life has led to this moment. I know you will be wonderful no matter what. I've been thinking about you all day. . .okay only 7 hours until she gets Maya.... now 5 hours... By now you already have her as it is 12:15 am in St. Louis. You must be beaming.I cannot imagine (well yes I can I'm a mom) the joy you must feel today... Oh boy do I need some tissue.. I cannot wait to see her in your arms as I think "Oh man she is going to be gone another whole week." Happy gotchya Day to you! Happy Gotchya day to you! Happy gotchya day Michelle and Maya! Happy gotchya day to you! all my love to you both, Tina
I can't believe you have her now!!! Please post as soon as humanly possible! (Grandpa? Grandpa?)
Stephanie
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